The rollercoaster we call Life.

And so I sit here, in my usual spot - the comfy couch - listening to You belong with me ... chatting on msn... and basically bludging my butt off. I don't really have anything to talk about, so this is more of a rambling..

Have any of you ever realised or felt you're all alone?! Because sometimes... when things are tough... even when theyre not, I feel completely alone. Like, you know you have friends and family and stuff. But... you really are alone. I can't explain the feeling. I just know I've been getting it a lot lately.

Maybe I just need faith? But I don't see the point in having any faith right now... I guess I'm going through a complicated stage -being a teenager... school - studying - exams :(... it's the confusing stage, right? Where you're not a kid, but you're not an adult either.

I don't know. Maybe it's just me. I have no idea... But lately it's also like... If I expect something good, it won't turn out like that no matter what. If I get too excited about something, something bad happens and I'm instantly down thinking 'What the hell just happened?'. Somtimes it's like nobody understands you. Like they don't care.

Life is a rollercoaster, I tell you right now. One minute everything seems perfect... as flawless as Edward Cullen's skin... everything is pure happiness. Like the sun. Like a beautiful, bright field filled with wildflowers and plain's of that long, dusted, yellow/green grass... where you feel free. Full of joy. Freedom. But it's like that feeling can't last long no matter what. Because the next minute you're in a cold, dark, unhappy place. Like a cold, wet chamber deep below ground level. There's no way of escaping. No one to come and rescue you. You're hopeless. There's no light. No point of reason.

So I guess life's as up as it is down. And that saying 'What goes up, must come down' is relevant to this right now.

I'm not entirely unhappy, so don't be worried or confused. I'm just having a little... time to express myself and incidents that affect the way I feel, I guess.

tianaaa. xx