When people go haywire...

I never really knew the extent of kids and drugs...kids being homeless...kids being normal one minute, the next they're off their head.

I never would have bothered to think about that stuff, till now. Why? I have a friend that's done exactly that. She's a druggo, a homeless (by choice), and ... she's off her head. One minute she's normla, the next thing you know, she's the opposite of who she used to be. She's drugged up, running away from home, smoking who knows what, living on the streets by choice, having sex with who knows who... She's not the girl I once knew.

In fact, we were best friends, if you want to put it like that. I met her when I came to the school in year 7 (which was 4 years ago). I think we disliked each other at first, though I can't be too sure. Memories fade... I think we became "bff's" at the end of year 7. From then on, our friendship was on again off again. We'd swap best friends, fight constantly... the stupid things teenagers do. It was like a trend. We'd get angry at each other for such silly reasons... like one not saying hi to the other first, and just childish things like that. Anyway, that's another story.

Year 10. She began changing... she got into that 'emo' music... met 'emo' friends... and you know she seemed not so normal, but still HER. She began smoking, but I assumed that she'd stop eventually. Though she started getting into that 'emo' trend. She even began cutting herself...

Then after that, she just went nuts. I never assumed she'd run away from home, but today I am in year 11, she'd left in year 10... and she's on the streets, doing/selling drugs, taxing items from the shops, smokind weed/pot and who knows what, having sex with her boyfriend, and other guys at parties... and to be specific, I'm sure she sleeps on the streets at Kings Cross.

Today she visited us in school. She got kicked out of course. Her two friends came. Her boyfriend, and another friend I'm assuming she had done 'stuff' with. Her boyfriend seemed to love putting his hand who knows where... and fiddling around with that part... and in the middle of school, mind you. Everyone was crowding around looking. It was overwhelming. When she came to hug me, I couldn't bare to breathe. She smelt so bad... not only of cigarettes and probably some other form of smells from smoking... but it's like she hadn't showered in a while...

She's just not the one I knew. You know, throughout year 10, when she began changing, I tried motivating her to come back to being herself. I tried to push her in the right direction. Maybe I was too pushy? Maybe I hadn't done enough?

I never knew the extent of drugs, and what they do to people. Now I know, and I've learnt from anothers mistakes.

I guess life's beautiful, right... but it's also ugly. It's full of hatred, pain, evil... and I guess we shouldn't take anything for granted. Appreciate what we have. What God gave us. Appreciate the beautiful things in life... whether it be our family and friends, or something like the stars in the night sky... there's as much beauty as there is pain.